Declaimer: I do not own Gundam Wings and the song 'Gone' it belongs to N'SYNC.
Authors note: This fic has Angst and a bit of Romance. It's all about Trowa and Midii.
I suggest you listen to the new song by N'SYNC entitled 'gone'. Goes well in the story.
Tips: thoughts are in italic, song is in // this thing also with italics //
Gone
Rated: PG
"Trowa" Midii said as she turned towards him in bed.
"HHmmmm?"
'I've got to do this. I promised Relena that I would ask him. She said it's better knowing than being held in the dark. I feel that if I don't hear it I'm going to explode. Alright Midii, gather your courage now. Your only about to ask the question that will change your life forever, the worst he can say is no. Damn that curseth word I wish at this moment it never existed.
"Midii, what's wrong?"
'Hurry up and tell him' Midii's mind screamed.
"Uh, Trowa? I need to ask you a serious question."
"Sure." Trowa said as he reached out and held her hand.
Midii took a couple gulps before she continued. 'Better say it now before I loose courage again.' "Trowa, do you love me?" 'There I said it. What do I have to loose?...Trowa.'
Midii could feel Trowa's body tense.
'What am I to say to her? Yes? so that she'll go to sleep happy? I don't even know love, Damn the war! Maybe I'll pretend that she said nothing. Sometimes no answers are the best way to go.' Trowa turned back around and went to sleep, leaving Midii close to tears.
'He doesn't love me...he doesn't love me...doesn't love me...Trowa. I lost Trowa. I can't stay here. Relena was wrong being kept in the dark is better than the harsh truth! I have to leave he doesn't love me so I don't belong here. I'll go tomorrow when he leaves the house...Goodbye Trowa...' Midii drifted off to sleep making plans to go the next day.
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"Midii"
It was the next day and Trowa had just came back from his ballet class. He was the teacher. Trowa couldn't really find a job that suited him as well as the circus so he did everything. Like a 'Jack of all Trades'. It was Sunday so that means it was movie night for them.
"Midii come on we're going to be late." Trowa had already dressed from dance class so he was ready. he walked into the kitchen and found a white note on the black table. "What's this?" Trowa asked out loud.
The note said:
Dearest Trowa. Knowing that you'll never be mine has torn my heart. That's why I left. I don't want to live a false hope/dream any more. I've woken up and faced reality. I'm gone now, think of me some times. (I'll be thinking of you.)
Midii
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"Damn, nothing's on" Trowa said out loud to no one. He turns on the radio and gets another beer. He sits back on the couch and listens.
// There's a thousand words that I could say, to make you come home
Seems so long ago you walked away, left me alone
And I remember what you said to me, you were acting so strange //
'Midii' Trowa thought to himself.
// If I could just find a way, to make it so that you were right here right now,
I've been sitting here, can't get you off my mind
try my best to be a man and be strong
I've drived myself insane, wishing I could touch your face
but the truth remains your
Gone
Your... gone
baby your... gone
baby girl your...gone
your...gone
your...
Now I don't want to make excuses baby, don't change the fact that your gone
but if there's something that I can do, won't you please let me know
time is passing so slowly now, guess that's my life without you
and maybe I can change my everyday, but baby I don't want too
so I'll just hang around, and find some things to do to take my mind off loving you
and I know in my heart, you can say that you don't love me too, please say you do.
I've been sitting here, can't get you off my mind
try my best to be a man and be strong
I've drived myself insane, wishing I could touch your face
but the truth remains your...
gone
your...gone
your...gone
your gone...gone
your...gone
your...gone//
'After Middi left I immediately joined the preventors again. It's been 3 days since I had something to do. I can't believe that I didn't realize that the reason why I try to keep my self occupied is so that I won't think of Midii! I can't believe I miss her that much'
Trowa got up and called his secretary at the preventors office to ask her to find Midii. 'Midii' Trowa thought. 'I'm coming'
Two weeks later
Trowa was walking along the beach. It's been a week since Trowa found out where Midii was hiding. It took him a week to summon up his courage and go to British Columbia, Canada. So here he was walking along the beach of Vancouver looking for her. He found out that she spent most of her time at the coast.
A woman's back appeared. 'Midii?' Trowa thought.
"Midii!" Trowa called to her. She was turning to face him as Trowa started to walk towards her.
"Honey," a man called from the area she looking at. Trowa stopped walking and witness in horror as the man embraced the woman and kissed. The two started to walk into inland and what Trowa saw almost made him cry. She was pregnant and showing it.
// What will I do, if I can't be with you
tell me where will I turn to, baby girl
Am I still in your heart
Baby why can't you see, that I need you here with me //
Trowa walks back up towards the hotel where his things were. He decided it was best to leave now. He heard the couple's laughter as he walked away.
// But the truth remains your...
gone,
your...gone,
your gone...gone,
your...gone
your...gone //
A single tear, escaped his broken heart, and ran down his face.
I came up with this idea last night August 16th because I couldn't fall asleep so I started to write. I'm thinking of writing a Sequel to it but I want to know people are actually reading my stuff. So all I need is one little comment from someone and then I'll write it. I already have an idea in my head. Send comments to heero_crazy@hotmail.com Thanks for reading.